Thursday, June 29, 2017

Back to child advocates

I don't remember if I mentioned it here, but I did return to child advocates. The case that I'm on has nothing to do with child abuse and everything to do with punishing a mom for being poor. She used to use drugs- but has been clean for 3 years. I have 3 years worth of negative drug tests of hers in my possession. She's in close contact with her sponsor. Now, they are telling her to get a bigger place to live. She has a few prospects, but they all involve coming up with a lot of money, like now. Now I've realized that her phone has been cut off. Having to move quickly and come up with a lot more f money quickly, I can see not paying the phone bill. Not to mention I think her place is plenty big enough for her to get both of her children back. But that's me. My advocacy coordinator said, "if she can't keep her phone on, then how can she take care of her kids?"  It's not even about children of abuse anymore. It's classism.

Sunday, June 25, 2017


I have not had a period in three months.

It's not what you think- There are no immaculate conceptions in this house.

It's menopause.  I know they told me based on my bloodwork that I was in perimenopause, but I didn't think it would happen this quickly.  I thought it took a couple of years.

An elderly woman I helped once said she didn't experience any symptoms.  "One day, it just stopped", she said.  But she was in her 50's.  I'll be 39 in 3 weeks.

A woman is said to have three phases in life- maiden, mother, and crone.  I don't like the word "crone", and don't feel like one.  For all intents and purpouses, I'm still in the mother phase.

Friday, June 23, 2017

Teacher Gives Fake Spelling Test as April Fools Prank

This 4th grade teacher giving his students a fake spelling test for April Fool's Day had Annalise and me laughing hysterically.  We had to watch it several times.

Tuesday, June 20, 2017


I usually get seasonal affective depression in the summer months. Most people get it in the winter months, but there are people like me who get it now. We are so strange that they call summer seasonal affective "reverse SAD".   It's been this way since I was about 15, though it's skipped some years. The summer that I had Annalise, 2007, I was euphoric. It also skipped one summer before I got married.

Hot flashes make it more unbearable.

A tropical storm, possibly a hurricane, is headed to east Texas tomorrow. I'm hoping it passes Houston and goes to the TX/LA border where there's a lot of KKK. Not to be blunt, but yeah.

The woman I have been working for 2 hours in the morning and two hours in the evening went into the hospital with a possible stroke. I thought to myself, if it's a stroke, she most likely won't be coming home. I was really upset. I have gotten attached to her. She has so many problems already. But her husband told me that stroke was ruled out, and she'll go home in the next couple days.

I did postmates on 6/18, because that was the 2 year anniversary of when I started with postmates. I scrolled all the way down to my first day and screenshoted it to prove to future employment that it's been two years. Uber eats is much better. I have a mileage recording app that syncs to my ubereats app and knows when I'm logged in. This is for tax purposes, although I'm a little worried about taxes when it comes to the woman I'm caring for- her husband used to write me personal checks, now he just hands me cash.

As for Father's Day, I had to wish happy Father's Day to three people:

1. My dad. He thinks I know it all. If I give him advice on something, he takes it. He is a great babysitter. I bought him a keyboard cover for his computer that has large print letters. His 75th birthday was the day after what would have been his grandnephew's birthday, whom we lost in August. Because of this he refused to celebrate. He had no problem with Father's Day tho.

2.  My ex husband. Despite whatever went on between us, at the end of the day he still gave me the best thing ever, my daughter. He's very involved with her. 8 years ago, I promised him I'd let him be involved with her. His mother lied to him his whole life and said his real dad wanted nothing to do with him. We disproved that when we were moving and found old letters dated the 1980's from his real dad begging to see him and claiming his life was not complete. I won't stoop to her level.

3. My non boyfriend who raises two kids totally alone. The mother is a deadbeat. His parents claim that they'll die of heart attacks if they babysit. He works hard at a main job, and has two side gigs. We'd be a pretty cool party of 5, but we can't be together. Unfortunately, we can't stop communicating either.

Thursday, June 15, 2017

June- an overview

June 6th- My aunt Diane's birthday. She passed in 2012, and I miss her a lot

June 11th- Annalise turned 10!

June 13th- Evan's first birthday in Heaven. He would have turned 24.

June 14th-  My dad turned 75!

This Sunday- Father's Day!

June 16- will be the 25th anniversary of my grandmother passing away.

June 21- summer solstice, and I get a huge deposit from a huge job.

June 30th- The 10th anniversary of my aunt Mary's passing.

This last week- my 17 year old cousin had a complete thyroidectomy due to suffering from Grave's disease. She is in very good spirits, and her scar looks like she survived a beheadding.

Monday, June 12, 2017

A sad reality.

One of my teenage cousins posted some meme saying "true love waits". I burst out laughing. I'm so old now. I remember when all the teenagers were born. At my age, "true love waits" means waiting until all the kids are 18 so there is no baby mama/baby daddy drama.

Thursday, June 8, 2017

Win win!!

One of my favorite apps is shopkick. It gives you points for walking into stores (you have to enable location services.) and for scanning items without buying them. I collected enough points to cash in a $5 gift card to Walmart. I found Annalise a beautiful new modest swimsuit in size 10 on clearance for $4.97!!!

On Sunday, we are going to the beach on the Bolivar Peninsula. It's a lot less commercialized and more natural than the ones in Galveston. You have to take a ferry boat to get there. The ferry ride is about 25-30 minutes long. They let you get out of your car and stand along the railing. You almost always see dolphins leaping. We can't wait.

Monday, June 5, 2017


Alex has fleas. Tiger ran away again. I've done everything. He has a flea collar. He got flea treatment, which I actually got carded for while buying. (Are kids doing something they shouldn't be doing with flea medicine?). I've sprayed, washed all bedding, vacuum a lot. What else can I do?  He also had some matted fur which I could not comb out so I actually shaved it off. It was hilarious! He LOVED being shaved!!! If he had his way, he would have let me make him a meat kitty. Keep in mind I'm scared to take him to the vet. Thanks.